
Madi had her first day of primary yesterday. Serving as the primary chorister, I got to be in there and see how she did. I dropped her off outside the primary doors as I went in to get ready for music and help set up. She looked like such a big girl waiting there in line with all the other big primary kids. Then she came in, sat down, was pretty quiet, but not as reverent as I would have liked. I was annoyed. While one of the counselors was giving announcements I was trying to get Madi's attention, giving her the "death stare", mouthing for her to fold her arms. It didn't work. She kept putting her feet up on the seat next to her, flashing her Dora panties in the process. Her teacher had to continue reminding her to put her feet on the floor and keep her dress down. At the end of sharing time I went up to her teacher to apologize for Madi's irreverent behavior, which of course was dismissed with the "it's totally normal" comment. I guess I was just annoyed because we'd "played" primary several times during the week. Spencer was the teacher, I was the chorister, and Elle was the distracting classmate. Madi passed each practice with flying colors. So I was a little bummed to see less than the behavior we had practiced. While I was whispering with Madi's teacher, one of the counselors leaned over and told me she could tell that I was stressed about Madi's behavior. Then what she said was exactly what I needed to hear. She told me that while I'm the chorister I need to forget about my parental responsibility and treat Madi just like I would any other primary child. I need to praise and interact with her just like I do all the other primary kids. She laughed and told me how she saw one little girls panties every single Sunday. It's true, if any other kid was doing what Madi was doing I wouldn't have thought twice. She was being quiet, not distracting anyone else- just a little wiggly. I felt bad for being so hard on Madi. Spencer said it right in the car- "everyone wants their own kid to be perfect." I do have to give a shout out to Madi though for being the loudest singer during our opening song of "I am a Child of God." I couldn't have been prouder.

Madi celebrated her half birthday last Tuesday. She was so excited about it! She now tells everyone, "I'm not three anymore, I'm three and a HALF! I'm excited too- cause we're that much closer to 4. I'm crossing my fingers that 4 will be an easier age. These past few months have been a struggle for me. She's just so much stinkin drama and the tantrums are like none I've ever seen- screaming and crying uncontrollably while gasping that she can't breathe. Yelling things like "I don't like you!" On one hand I want to record all the annoying, stressful stuff she does to let her know what it's gonna be like when she has a daughter someday, but then on the other hand maybe I should let her believe that she's the perfect little angel that I always grew up thinking I was.

She does say the sweetest things. Just a few that I remembered to write down:
" I love you Mommy. I'm so glad you're my mommy. A lot of kids don't have great mommies."
Madi: "Did I cry out last night?"
Me: "Ya, three times!"
Madi: "I try really hard not to cry out. Tonight I'll put my blanket over my head and just say a prayer."
"I'm so sorry mom. I'll never do it again."
(getting stuck between our front and glass storm door, and knocking down a ceramic picture of the temple- luckily breaking nothing).
Me: "Madi how'd you get so smart?"
Madi: Flashing the most adorable smile Madi pats her head and says, "My cerebellum helps me remember."
Madi: "Mom, let's read this sad story." (A Christmas book that I always bawl through).
Me: "No, it's too sad, I don't want to cry right now."
Madi: "It's ok, I'll just get you a tissue."
Madi: (looking through the Ensign) "Mom! Mom! Look! I see someone we know."
Me: Getting excited someone close to us has made it into the Ensign, turn to see who Madi's looking at. I then notice she's pointing to Jesus.
Madi: "It's Jesus! He teaches us."
Other things about Madi:
* She loves the smell of books. It still cracks me up when we're reading and she'll lean forward to smell the book.
* She just recently started taking showers instead of baths- this was a big step for Madi who's always been petrified of the shower. I'm sure she'll still take baths, but it's good to know that she's starting to conquer some of her fears.
*She's obsessed with Beauty and the Beast right now. My parents got her the movie for Christmas and she's already quoting it.
* Just in the last month or two Madi now comes out of her room in the morning instead of calling, "It's wake-up time" and waiting for us to come get her.
*She'll now try different foods as long as we tell her it's "Dora food"- like Dora lasagna, Dora pasta, Dora pizza, etc. (all these foods Madi refuses to eat otherwise)
* We started an m&m jar two months ago after my
last post of frustrations. My good friend Lindsey Bell left a comment with an idea I thought would work. I changed the bubble gum to m&m's (just cause I'm too lazy to craft up some cool bubble gum machine with gum balls) and it's actually been awesome (thanks Linds). Madi's super close to earning her "prize".
* We're currently working on not crying out in the night (lots of nights with crazy nightmares turned into our daughter just crying out for the heck of it- then screaming until we'd come in). With a bribe of putting 5 m&m's into her jar in the morning if she doesn't cry out, and an even bigger bribe of earning bunk beds after going a month straight with no cry-outs, Madi's now had 3 successful nights (not going to say anymore for fearing of jinxing something).
* She's obsessed with playing doctor, and is confident that that's what she's going to be when she grows up.